One Step at a Time

Where is this road that I am on leading me to?

It's one of the hardest things in the world for me to 'trust.' At times, I am the total opposite and trust way to much and in the long run become a door mat. But it seems more recent, I need to trust the one person in my life that can actually help me. My selfishness has turned me away from the Lord.

For example, school. I have had a rocky semester. Not because I wanted to, just because that's how it evened out. School will never come easy for me and I'm ok with that. But I desire so bad, to pass a class with a grade that is on the boarder of failing. It's my lack of trust in the Lord that he will bring me through the class, and I have come to the conclusion that I may NOT pass a class. As hard as that is to swollow, it's a lesson, a HARD lesson at that, but a lesson. I desire so much to be that academic student, that student that can study and ace the test. Me on the other hand have never been that way.

Although, as I look back at my life, the entire soon to be 20 years of it. I see things that I wish I could go back and change. One being, not finishing high school. High school despite how much it sucks is a place where you learn so much, maybe not academic wise, but for sure, social wise. I missed out on that. I wish that I would have gone back to Fairhope High School and finished. Not have taken the easy road out. Not saying that home-school is bad and at that time in my life, I needed to be home-schooled, but I was healthy at one point and I think that I could have gone back and finished it out. But, there's no reason to look back at things that can't be changed.

I'm just learning the hard way, once again. I keep telling myself that I am on this road for a reson. I was placed in this situation at this time for a reson greater than myself. As hard as that is for someone to admit and move forward, I am trying my hardest. So I keep telling myself that I have to take One Step at a Time. There's no reason to rush to finsish collage, there is no reason to wish things that have not yet entered my life, because the Lord has plans for me and I need to be patient and wait, because they will come.

On a cooler note, I registered for Spring 2009 classes ( Lord willing that I pass the classes that I am currently in).

Here is what I am going to be taking.
- Geography with a Lab
- Survey of Communication Theory
- Computer Application
- Introduction to Writting and Reporting for the Media

I'm looking forward to taking those classes.

Well, I'm going to go and study....this week is a stresser. I have so much due...lets see. An American Lit paper due tomorrow, a 6 page research paper due in Advertising due Thursday (on Public Service Announcements) and an American Lit test on Thursday!!! GO ME!

Enjoy this beautiful weather, Fall has finally arrived!! YEAH!