Tis' The Season

Gosh, another Christmas gone by!!! I remember as a kid, the countdown to Christmas Day and how much fun it was for us to tear off the tab for the day's left...how magical it was all for me. And I feel bad for saying this, but the magic is so not in it for me anymore. This is my all time favorite time of year, no doubt about it, but for some reason this year I just didnt really care. I know that sounds horrible, but it's the truth. I think the reason I didn't care was because I really forgot the real meaning behind all the decorations, the food, the gifts and the crazyness that we put ourselves through. I forgot that on this day a Savior was born, and that this child would one day die on the cross for my sin. Now how selfish I feel for saying that.

This morning the family got up and went over to Mobile to go and deliever meals to those that are less fortunte, through the "WaterFront Rescue Mission." We all did it last year and it is such a wonderful way to start the day off, by serving others and not making the moment or day about you. I will tell you that there were moments during delievering the meals that I just wanted to break down and cry, because of the condition's that some of these individuals were living in. No one really thinks of Mobile as being gross or nasty, but drive a little up I-65 and through Prichard and you will find the dirt and poverty of the South. But, the expression on these people's faces when you showed up at their down step with a hot meal was one tha t will always be remembered. Even though we drove through some rough areas and delievered meals in some rough areas, I hoped right out of the car and delievered my meal regardless of who was standing there.....I think that may need to change, I can't be that ope and free about everything.

Well I hope that your day was as relaxing and refreshing as mine was. I pray that as 2008 comes to a close, that 2009 will bring great joyful moments and stories that will last a lifetime.

It's Over

OK,

It's over!! It's over!!

I never thought that I would get to this point, alive. But I am here and it wasnt my doing that got me here.

I finished with finals last night and walking out of that classroom was the most refreshing feeling in the world.

But, I was telling Emma this morning that it dosent feel that I am done, like I feel that I should be studying still. I'm guessing this is because for the past week all I have been doing is studying and staying up late. So I guess that would explain why I slept until noon today. I'm catching up on my Z's!!!

Oh a funner note, I deep cleaned the entire apartment today.....well my room, bathroom, living room and kitchen!!! I couldn't tell you at how dirty the place had gotten....I'm guessing because of finals Emma and I forgot that we had to keep up the cleaning. But everything is spotless now and smells good, so Molly is one happy camper:)

Lost It and Can't Seem to Find It!

Ok, I have Lost it....I mean, gone to the "funny farm!" Finals start today for me, and I'm a big ball of nerves and stress and everything else combined into one thing. Oh, how wonderful collage can be. I have one final today....I don't think it will be that hard, but tomorrow is the day I might just actually resort to the "funny farm."I have two major finals, of which only one of the teachers gave a study guide out.....so how am I suppose to study 9 chapters and know what is going to be on the test:) I have lost the faith that I need to get through the rest of the week, but hey....it will all turn out ok.

Tonight on top of everything else, I have orientation for my new job, from 6 to 9.....how once again, Molly will be pulling an all nighter. Last night, I hit the pillow around 4 and got up at 7:30 to return to the books (so to say)!

Last night around 2 AM, Emma and I had lost it, so we decided to clear our minds and go for a joy ride around Mobile for a while......well as many of you know I dress to impress!!!

Yes, you guessed it....leggings, black cotton shorts, grey t-shirt, green hoodie, and of course my favorite my UGG's!!!

Maybe this is the reason why I haven't yet found a boyfriend!!

Turkey, Papers, and Laughing!!!

Ok, it's hard to believe that today is DECEMBER 1st!! My Gosh, where has the time gone. I do love this time of year and season, but I just wish that it would slow down for a second.....it's hard for me to picture what another year going by so fast is going to be like.

Well...I hope everyone had a Thanksgiving full of laughter, smiles, and being over stuffed beyond human compasity.
The Vosicky Family had a wonderful, very 'low' key Thanksgiving, which is a rareity for our family. I wish I could say that the food was great, but I haven't been eating that much lately and my plate at dinner was rather bare....I mean like a tiny piece of turkey and that's about it. So, I'm hoping when this week from "HELL" is over that I will regain my appetite.....I love food to much for me not to eat it :(

This past week was a well needed break from school. I was on the verge of losing my hair, preaged wrinkles, and dropping out....so the timing was perfect for me.

The best part was that I got to see friends....Emily, Libby, Andrew, Autumn, etc.

I love being around people that make me laugh and that is exactly what I did the entire week, while I was with everyone. By Sunday night, I was beyond exhausted because of staying up until 4 in the morning every day because I was out with friends...and I am paying for that now, but I had a wonderful time and can't wait for everyone to get home in 2 weeks so we can do it all over again.

I finished my two papers over the break, and that was a true relief for me. I am still learning this entire time management thing, that it's not that easy to do. So, of course I waited until the last second to write a 6 page research paper on "Direct-to-Consumer Advertising in Pharmaceutical Sales"!!!! Sounds fun right :)
So, that paper gets handed in tomorrow on top of a presentation due at that same time and then finals begin for me on Thursday.
But Friday is when I will be celebrating collage style!!! I will be done with Fall semester on Friday at 8 PM!!! One final Thursday, and then 2 finals on Friday and I am DONE!!! Yeah.

Don't ask me where this semester has gone, because I have no clue, but I do know is that 2 years from now I will be graduating and that is a scary thing to think about. I will have just turned 22!!! That's to young to enter the world! But of course according to Mom and Dad, heck NO it's not....meaning the sooner I graduate the sooner they stop paying for things. How nice of them!
So, I have been looking at internships, and I have come to the conclusion that I am going to have to move in order to find a job. The job market for Mobile sucks and the fact that I don't want to live here when I graduate is another. So I have been looking and I love the fact of applying for internships in Texas, Atlanta, Charlotte, and Nashville!!! We will see what happens!!!

Well everyone enjoy recovering from this past week....the bloating will subside shortly!

Girls Night!

Girl's Night!!

I love Girls' Night, it is so much fun. I'm not really sure how it got started, but it has gotten started and I love it and I think Kim, Emma and Karrie love it to. So, Monday night we all headed over to Kim's apartment and she made us a chicken dish (which was to die for) Thanks Kim! :) But what is a good dinner party without taking some killer pictures of everyone.

Please excuse my attire, I usually dress up for these events, but Monday was a rough day as you can see...although I will be glad to announce that I showered that day :-) Here are some pic's from that night, and one from my birthday dinner.

~ This would be me on the ground after falling into the pool, while holding onto the railing...and you wonder why my parents gave me the middle name of "grace!" ~

~This is me before I fell into the water.....you think I would be able to hold on, but that little railing is slippery~

~ This is what happened, when I fell into the water. My poor UGG's got wet~

~ I got stuck in this tree.....yes, I know that it was like 9 feet from the ground, but it was fun sitting in the tree~

Well, these are the moments that I get to laugh and enjoy having fun with people in my life that are amazing. The Lord really has answered my prayers in bringing people into my life that will shape me and help me through this journy. I pray that these people stay in my life when we all leave and depart into the real world. Kim and Karrie will graduate from graduate school in May and head away from Mobile, where Emma and I have another two years. But I know that where ever the Lord takes Kim and Karrie, I will for sure be taking a road trip to go and see them and take more pictures that will last a lifetime.

The Need to Write

I for some reason have the urge to pour my heart out to you this morning. Don't ask me why, I just do!

I have been thinking a lot about life and the road that I have walked. A hard one at times and one where I have to truely give everything to the Lord, but a road that has shaped me into being the woman that I am today. Not that bad! I think since I turned 20, I have been really thinking about the future, and everything the goes alot with your 20's. I mean most people I know, get married in thier 20's, have children, buy a house, buy a car, ect. That's a scary thought, but some what exciting to think that I may within the next 10 years fall in love, marry a man that loves the Lord, have children and actually become an adult. That's overwhelming to think about. But there is a story that I have to tell because it seems to always get me when I see this person at school.

I don't know this person that I am wirtting about, but I will tell you, I don't know him nad he dosent know me, but he has impacted my life and makes me love the Lord more everytime I see him. A young black man is a student at South and I have seen him twice now. But what gets me is that he is blind and when I see him he is always alone. Today, we were waiting for the bus to take us back to the apartment and of course since he can't see he couldnt tell what bus was passing. He then asked someone to help him get on the 'purple' bus. But what got me, was this young man has never seen. He walks with a stick to trust what is in front of him and he is humbled enough to ask someone to help him. But what amazes me everytime I see him, is that he has the biggest smile :) when he asks for help, not one person has ever declined, and the look on his face is priceless. What I am getting at is that the Lord is good, he is perfect in all area's of this life of mine and he has given me an illness that I don't want to battle at times, but he has given me sight to see the beauty of this life. This young man dosent get to see, he dosent get to see the beautifulness that is set before him, but I pray that his imagination is amazing that when someone speaks to him he imagins someone and what they look like. He is a student at a university and is living his life. If only this young man new how impactful he has been to me. And regardless of everything, he makes me tear up every single time I see him. I don't know if it is because I feel sorry for him or if it is because he inspires me to be a better person. I thank that young man and I hope one day I can help him get on a bus or help him find his way.

I think where I am getting with this story is that special need's people have always had a place in my heart. There's something about a human being that is just as I am, but has been created with beautiful aspects that not everyone has. They are suppose to be loved just as I am, who am I not to love them. So I have already decided that, sicne the chance of me having children of my own is slim, I want to adopt. I have always wanted this and I pray that the Lord will grant that prayer for me and my husband when that time comes. But what I really pray that the Lord will bless me with a child, that has special needs. I would love to be a mother to a child that was not loved at birth, I want to be the mother that raises that child to be a productive member of society and love the Lord with all her/his heart. It amazes me at how the Lord works in your heart and transforms it to be what he has planned it to be. Even at 20 I have researched adoption and yes it cost's alot of money, but those funds will arrive when the time comes.

Well I thought that I would pour out my heart to everyone. I think my hormons have gotten the best of me today, but hey that's the beauty of being a woman....a wonderful excuss to cry at the drop of a hat or be a little moody every once in a while!

New Things in a Crazy Life!

I have seen that our bodies that we live in is one crazy machine, and it really has a mind of it's own.

Mom and Dad (Kim and Joe) have really been wanting me to get a job this year. They want me to have the much used much loved word "balance" in my life! Of course, it's easy for me to object since I have not had to work while going to school, thanks to my parents and grandparents for a college fund. Believe me, they have pounded this into my head, that money runs out ( and in a sense the way that I am living my life, it's going fast ). I guess living in "club-med" dosent classify as a "need" in life. What can I say, living is expensive and I live in Mobile.....you will pay $$ to live in a somewhat safe area. Cause' you never know what around the corner is going to be like.

So, I took Mom and Dad's nagging words to heart and found myself a job. It was really by the grace of God that I did because I had applied at like 4 places and no one was hiring, even for the holidays. You know the economy is bad when TARGET isn't hiring for Chritsmas. So, I got a job woring for "Forever 21" in the mall. It's a brand new store (has not yet been opened, that's going to be my job). I dont invision this being a job that last's for long. I only expect it to last until January 12, 2009, when Spring classes start. But for the entire month I have off for Christmas break it is going to do just fine. '

But, for anyone who has had to go and look for a job, and then have a job interview, you know at how stressful that can be. Well, I never thought that I was stressed until I looked in the mirror and saw what stress and MOlly really combine to look like. It's not pretty. The dreded zit, and it's not just one, it's like five in a region. Oh what a joy!!! I was lucky enough to not have bad skin, but let me tell you when stress and 'that time of the month' comes, my skin has a mind of its own.

20 years and counting!

20 years!!!!

Molly Grace Vosicky

11/06/1988

Laguna Beach, California

Time flys by......I can't believe that I am 20! It kind of feels surreal to me, it just seems that yesterday I was turning 16 and that was the coolest thing of all time. That was an astonishing 4 years ago, hard to believe. Alot has happened in that 4 years, some good and some bad, but it has all shaped me to be the woman I am today at 20!

This is an exciting time in my life, this is the time of my life. I am praying that my 20's are better than my teens where. I'm hoping that in my 20's I can grow and see the world, through a new set of eyes. Go and experience new things and not be held back by anything.

So, I'm taking a step forward into the next 10 years. They will fly by, but I'm going to enjoy every year of my 20's!!!

Change is a Good Thing!

WOW!

What a week it has been so far. Can I just begin with "thank God" this election is over. I went over to Fairhope yesterday after class and voted, and let me tell you it was one of the most humbling and honoring things that I have ever done. To think that I made a difference in our country is one of the coolest things. The entire time I was driving from Mobile back home I kept thinking that, our country is one of very few that get to vote freely. I will not be killed or tortured because of what I am doing. I got to walk into a poll freely without persecution and vote for someone that I think would be a good leader.
So that was an experience and I won't forget. And especially since a radical change occurred last night. A man that came from a totally different back ground and has different world views will be running our country. That's not a bad thing. I thought that it would be. I really thought that if Obama got elected it was going to be the end of the world. But then I came to the conclusion that no matter who gets elected, that person was meant to be president, that person will have the power to run our country and as a country and Americans we have to stand behind him 100% and help him run this country.
To say the least I feel that I am beyond blessed to be an American and to have the rights that I have. I get to go to school freely and major in what I want to major in. I get to be a free person and that is something beautiful.
So I have decided to embrace President Obama and support him. He may be the best thing that has ever happened to our country, think of it that way.

On a lighter note, I only have 3 weeks left of school. It's crazy to think that I am already done with the semester and that my 20th birthday is tomorrow. We celebrated last night while I was home in Fairhope because Mom is going to be in Wisconsin for work the rest of the week. So I have been thinking about what is going to be happening in the future....20 years fly by and before you know it I will be nearing 40!!! I would rather not think of that.

But I want to write down what I really have a desire to do in the coming years.

1. graduate from South Alabama with a degree in Public Relations.....hopefully in 2 years from May!!!!

2. Move away from Mobile, hopefully to a large city.....I want to explore a big city and be part of it, that just seems so exciting to me.

3. land a job in the fashion industry. Something that I hope one day I will be able to achieve. I would settle fro being a PR person for a major sports team as well.

4. Later on in life, marry a man that will love me for me and serve the Lord.

I just want to enjoy my 20's, enjoy the moment that they fly by and that before you know it they will be over. It's hard to imagine growing up and it's hard to see myself not being a student but being a career woman....exciting but scary. I'm not sure what the Lord has in store for me, but I am willing to wait and find out.

One Step at a Time

Where is this road that I am on leading me to?

It's one of the hardest things in the world for me to 'trust.' At times, I am the total opposite and trust way to much and in the long run become a door mat. But it seems more recent, I need to trust the one person in my life that can actually help me. My selfishness has turned me away from the Lord.

For example, school. I have had a rocky semester. Not because I wanted to, just because that's how it evened out. School will never come easy for me and I'm ok with that. But I desire so bad, to pass a class with a grade that is on the boarder of failing. It's my lack of trust in the Lord that he will bring me through the class, and I have come to the conclusion that I may NOT pass a class. As hard as that is to swollow, it's a lesson, a HARD lesson at that, but a lesson. I desire so much to be that academic student, that student that can study and ace the test. Me on the other hand have never been that way.

Although, as I look back at my life, the entire soon to be 20 years of it. I see things that I wish I could go back and change. One being, not finishing high school. High school despite how much it sucks is a place where you learn so much, maybe not academic wise, but for sure, social wise. I missed out on that. I wish that I would have gone back to Fairhope High School and finished. Not have taken the easy road out. Not saying that home-school is bad and at that time in my life, I needed to be home-schooled, but I was healthy at one point and I think that I could have gone back and finished it out. But, there's no reason to look back at things that can't be changed.

I'm just learning the hard way, once again. I keep telling myself that I am on this road for a reson. I was placed in this situation at this time for a reson greater than myself. As hard as that is for someone to admit and move forward, I am trying my hardest. So I keep telling myself that I have to take One Step at a Time. There's no reason to rush to finsish collage, there is no reason to wish things that have not yet entered my life, because the Lord has plans for me and I need to be patient and wait, because they will come.

On a cooler note, I registered for Spring 2009 classes ( Lord willing that I pass the classes that I am currently in).

Here is what I am going to be taking.
- Geography with a Lab
- Survey of Communication Theory
- Computer Application
- Introduction to Writting and Reporting for the Media

I'm looking forward to taking those classes.

Well, I'm going to go and study....this week is a stresser. I have so much due...lets see. An American Lit paper due tomorrow, a 6 page research paper due in Advertising due Thursday (on Public Service Announcements) and an American Lit test on Thursday!!! GO ME!

Enjoy this beautiful weather, Fall has finally arrived!! YEAH!

Mid-Term!

Good Lord!! Where has time gone?

Last week was mid-terms and it's hard to believe that half the semester is already over. Mid-term is the point in the semester when you find your current grade and you then freak out beyond beliefe, praying to God that he gives you the passing grade.

I'm pretty close to that line. Sad to say, but yes! I have never been a good student, I love to learn, it just has never come easy for me. That is one of my many downfalls. But, like everyone says, I have other things that work in my favore.

Beside school, I have been busy decorating the apartment for fall. I bought some pumkins and today I am going to make an arragement on our table....I'm looking forward to see what it turns out like. I have a secented Apple candle burning and it just makes the entire place smell like fall!!! I love it....although I wish that it would be a little cooler, that weather will come on its own time, no need to rush it.

Well I just thought that I would drop a post, to tell you guys that I am alive and that I may be losing weight and losing hair because stress induces alot of not so good things in my life. Something that I have to learn to manage, that can be a work in progress!!

Enjoy the week:)

Fall has Arrived!

Gosh, I can't tell you at how much I love fall!! Aww, just the thought of being able to open your windows and let the crisp air run throughout your house ( or in my case, apartment ) is the best feeling in the world. I think I love this time of year so much is because it was on the prettiest times of year in Wisconsin growing up. Unless you have lived in the north and visited during the changing of the leaves, you have no clue. Looking back at it,I see how God just used a paint brush and had a day with a it. But there is also a downside to it as well, and that is, the leaves fall and then the snow arrives. Of course the first snow fall is magical and wonderful, but that is the downward spiral until April.

My two favorite months are, October and November (birthday month)! We have been really lucky this year in the south with the weather. I opened the windows last week and at night I woke up cold, not wanting to get out of bed and go to class....if that's hard to believe!

But, I will tell you, I can't believe that this year has gone by so quick. I was looking at my calender today in amazement that it's already October and then I saw that we only have 10 more weeks left until 2009!!! How crazy is that, I mean it's almost wrong. I have come to the conclusion that as you get older the time goes quicker. I mean, it really does feel like just yesterday that I was starting college, and here today in December I will be a junior. And on top of that I am going to be 20, on November 6!!!! 20! Two decades, just the sound of that makes me sick. But hey, like most say the 20's are the best times of your life. I'm hoping so because the teenage years sucked.

Classes are going well for me, although I have come to find out that college takes alot more time than you think. Of course I knew that I was going to be studying and writting papers, ect, but what I didnt realize is that on top of that you have to make a social life (of which I have lacked in), you have to find a job (something I don't have to do but I want to) and then find time to sleep. Believe me I have come to love a good afternoon cat nap. It just seems that the more you pile on your day the faster the day goes and then you have to do it all over again. That's exhausting. I'm guessing that is what it feels like to me a mom, the same routine over and over every single day.

Just wanted to keep everyone up to date, even though there is no fun news in my life. I mean no fun news. No boy drama, no friend drama, school drama was last week and life for me right know is going well. Of course me and doubtfulness I am guessing that something is coming my way, but I am turing that one over to the Lord to handle. I can't add another thing to my plate!!

Enjoy the fresh fall air! I'm looking forward to going out and craving a pumkin and making my center piece for my kitchen table!!

60 Miles Again...You Must Be Crazy!

Alright, I never thought that I would say this, but walking 60 miles is on my heart!!! I'm really struggling with the fact that I desire to walk 60 miles again...because when you really think about it, who in their right mind would want to do that! Then the more I think about it the more I want to do it, because I look back at all the photo's that were captured and all the memories that were shared and it makes me want to walk that 60 miles again.

It is moment's like this that I get to share with my mom that makes me want to walk. When I really think about it, it wasn't that bad. Yeah, we had to shower in portable showers (but there was hot water, after walking 20 miles that is really nice), the horrific use of port-potties (they were kept really clean, because you have to think this event is mostly women and no women is going to be using a nasty port-pottie), then there is the waking up at the crack of dawn in the cold weather (that's the part that was the hardest).

But when it is all said and done and you look back and are surrounded with hundreds of women and look at how far you walked, it is the most amazing feeling. And it's not just the fact that I walked 60 miles in Atlanta with my mom and my best friend, it's the fact that I walked 60 miles to save women from going through what I saw my mom go through. I walked for myself and for my children and friends, because I don't want to have a cure for breast cancer. And I especially walked for a young girl that changed my life and she didn't even know it, we walked and she cheered us on with a sign that brought many women to tears and that sign read...."my mommy would have said Thank You!" When I keep going back to that moment I remember that little girl and that rest of that day and how I walked and kept walking to help her and to help all the other young girls that have lost their mom to breast cancer.

So, I will walk again. But along side many more people that are close to me. I have asked people that are close to me to walk with me. So, October 23-25, 2009 I will be walking through Atlanta once again, beside Mom, Dad, Nate, Alex, Sarah O'Neil, Mike O'Neil, Kathy O'Neil and myself!!! 8 people that will walk again for a cause. As Mom, Sarah, Mrs. Kathy and I found out last year, the hardest part of the entire process if NOT raising the money because the fund's come (somehow and someway they arrive).

A family of 10!!

One of my favoirte show's on tv nowa days is, "Jon and Kate plus 8!"

I look forward to Monday nights when I get to watch how amazing their children are and how Jon and Kate are two parents that were made to have 8 children ( 6 of which all came out at the same time)! I have learned so much from Kate in her love and patience for her children, she has a very structered house hold....of which she has to have, having 8 children. Cara, Maddie, Aiden, Collin, Joel, Leah, Hannah, Alexis....are 8 of the most adorable children!!! They make a bad day that turn into a wonderful day.

I also love the message that they are sending out, they are believers and their motto is that they were created to serve the Lord. Jon and Kate both look at them having 8 children as a blessing from the Lord. He picked them to be parents of 8 children and the parents of sextuples!!! You have to have the strength from the Lord to endure 32 weeks of carring 6 babies, and then endure another 10 weeks of bedrest in the hospital....that is what I call an amazing mother and women.

I find strength in Kate, that I never thought that I would find. My desire to have children of my own are beyond words, although I know that the Lord is wonderful in all things and that he has plans that he is prepairing me for, I have no clue what they are and it is in time that I will find out. Although, I would love to birth a child of my own, the reality of that happening for me is very slim. Although at 20, things can change in the years to come, but as of right now I don't see myself having children of my own. But that will not stop me from being a mother......I will go around the world to have a child. I have always had a place in my heart for adoption and I see that it is all falling into place now as I get older and see the bigger picture.....a blessing in discuise. I tell my parents and friends that my Christmas cards are going to have every color of the rainbow. I want a family of differnt colors and ethnic backgrounds, children of different races and lives.

I'm not sure that the Lord has called me to be a mother of 8.....but I do believe that he has called me and is prepairing me for that journey of being a mother.

I'm sure many of you are reading this and thinking, she's only 20!! Yes, that is true, and the simple fact that I have never been in a relationship, but I am a firm believer that if something is on your heart it means the Lord placed it there for you to meditate on it and pray about it. I do, I pray that one day I will find the man the Lord has called me to be with ( if that is in his plan) and that he has planned and set a side children for me to have....be it my own or be it someone elses, that couldnt care for their child. Our God is a wonderful maker, a maker of life and to think that he has my ENTIRE life planned out is beyond me...it's to hard to fathom that before time itself I was set aside to be created and walk the walk that I live, to carry my cross and follow Him. I could fall to my knee's now thinking of how wonderful of a gift that is.....to be a child of Christ.

So no matter what the LOrd has in store for me......be it a mother of my own child, or a mother of a child that's mother couldnt take of.....I'm prepaired.

Jon and Kate are two of the most amazing parents, and even though they have problems just as we do ( marriage, family, money, ect.) they relay on a higher power to get them through it. An inspiration for me to find that for them the love a their family is more important to them than anything else in this world.......clothing, money, cars, materialist things. I know that Jon and Kate effect so many people in them watching their show. I am more than possitive that women struggling to have children find hope in watching Kate endure the same struggle and men seeing at how loving Jon is despite working a long day and them coming home to, what I would assume is a loud household.....not many can do that!!!

Why so hard?

Alright...I wish that someone would have told me that school was going to be as hard as it is. I know, your probley thinking that....Molly it's college what do you expect!! Yeah, I think that I forgot about that little detail when I registered for Advertising, American Lit 2, Intro Communications, Anthropology and Weight Lifting!!! It's only 13 hours, but let me tell you it's 13 HARD hours. I have never been one to study much, I have always wished and kind of lead the life that school comes easy to me, that I can be like EMily Smith and not study and still make a "amazing" grade! HA, I wish that was me. The Lord gave me other gifts and talents to have, and being a 4.0 student was NOT one of them. Don't get me wrong, I try my hardest ( at times), and my parents have raised me to work your hardest in all that you do. Thank you Mom and Dad for that :)

I'm enjoying the afternoon at Dr. Java across the street from campus, sitting at a table tucked in a little corner listening to some smooth jazz. Very soothing!! Wireless internet, is a god-send in a college town.....there is nothing better to be studying and surfing the web at the same time.

Well, I have offically finished the first week of school, I thank the Lord that he gave me the strength to get through it. I think the first and last week of classes are the hardest because it is beyond overwhelming to be sitting in a class with 40 people getting bombarded with information. I think that as hard as this semester is going to be, it's going to be alot of fun to. It's going to be one of those semesters that really makes you understand and appreciate education. Like Mommy Kimmy says, is that you know that you have to study and that it is more than likely not going to come easy, you may make a "C" and that is ok. My desire in college is to at least make it on the deans list for at least a semester....I have 5 more to go so we will see.

I love the new apartment that Emma and I have. It is so cute, and we have added our little touch of TLC to it, creating it to be our own space. I still have to find some curtins for my bedroom and the living room.....I'm thinking that Pier 1 is going to help me out in that department. If I'm lucky mommy kimmy will help me out in providing drapes for a broke college student:(

Please pray that I can make it through this semester with the knowledge needed to succeed and the determination to over come the walls that are set in front of me. I think the only class that I am actually going to get an A in is weight lifting and the plus to that is that I am going to have a killer body. Yeah I said it, I'm going to be looking good. I woke up this morning and tryed to get out of bed and about feel because I was so sore...it just shows you at how out of shape you really are, at least I admit that!!!

Moving On

It is so freeing and refreshing to have a new start at something. It's a wonderful blessing that I have had the opportunities in my life that I have had. As I have learned life experiences are worth more than anything-even though they may hurt in the moment, in the long run they change you to be a better person.
Last August I moved to Auburn to live with a friend and go to school. In the moment I hated Auburn.....I cryed everyday and came home at least 2 times a month. I will not lie, that year was one of the hardest times in my life. I believe that I could have had a better time, if I had given the situation to the Lord right in the beginning, but me being myself and selfish and sinful, I could do it and I didn't need the Lord to help me. As I look back, I really did! My poor parents, getting phone calls of me just crying.....but how great they were to calm my spirits and pray for me in the moment and it was amazing to feel amazingly better. The power of the Lord!!!

Yesterday, I moved again. Not as far from home, but far enough away. I moved to Mobile, so I could be closer to the University of South Alabama. And I will tell you, I love it. I moved myself and when my parents came over yesterday evening to see me, and they left....I was all smiles inside. Because I knew in my heart of hearts that this was where I was called to be. I know that this journey the Lord has placed me on, is going to be one of great memories and laughter ( not saying that it is going to be hard at times). I think the best part about moving, is unpacking the boxes and redecorating a room. Making it your own!! I found out last year, your room needs to be a place of peace and a place where you can go and just sit and relax, your place for yourself. So, that is what I have created, a place for myself.

School starts Monday, and I am looking forward to moving on in that area of my life as well. It's about time I get to a University!! But as I find out, the paths we walk in this life are only because they make us stronger and they actually help mold us into the people we are called to be.

So here's to moving on and to starting a new school year. Just 2 1/2 more to go!!

Good-bye Summer

Someone please inform me on where the summer went!!! It's so sad to think that I'm going to be heading back to school in a week. Scary!!! I keep reciting in my head that "God is Good, that I am NOT in control of his perfect and wonderful plan that he has for me." This is something that I battle with daily, to think that I, MOlly Grace Vosicky am not in control of my life. That's a pill to swollow in allowing my wonderful maker to control this crazy and sinful life that I lead. I will admit that as the school year comes upon me, I am getting aprehensive. A sin in and of itself! I don't trust the Lord.....that he will carry me through the times that are hard, that he will not be there when I need him the most. Although in my head I know that he is there, he is the ever present one. This is a prime example of my sinfulness and Yes, I am ashamed to say that I don't trust the Lord at times.
Many of you don't know ( and most people dont) the journey the Lord has placed me on. I may have a little easier than most, but I live with an illness that at times controls my life ( again a sin), a illness that the Lord GAVE me, he picked me to carry this cross and in that I should be ever thankful, for he called my name, because he knew that I would be able to handle it. Where at times, I feel that I wont be able to, I know that in the deepest part of my heart I will be able to. So, let me get to the point of this whole langing of me typing is getting to is that I fear the unknown. I fear that I won't be a good student or a good friend, or daughter, I fear that I will give up half way through the semester because I had a moment in my life where I queshtioned the Lord. In this time, I have to turn to the Lord and praise him, praise him for providing for me, for allowing me to walk the road I am on, to have the parents and friends that I do, and to greatful for each and everyday I get to wake up and glorify him.

Dear Heavenly Father:

I pray that you guide me through this coming school year. Let me a servent of yours, show me how to preach the word and be a beackend of hope for those that are lost. Guide me down the path you have set before me to be a godly women. Shape me and form me to be the women you created before time itself was created. I pray that you soften my heart, to bridel my tongue, open my ears to hear those that are yearning and searching and for me to have my arms outstretched to those that need your love. Allow me to be a better, daughter, sister, and friend. I ask that you take my selfishness and place kindness and love in my heart, show me what it is to serve you everyday. Father, I pray that you give me strength to walk through the valley, that you carry me through the moments of sheer darkness and for me to have faith in you in all the stages of my life. I love you father and I thank you for choosing me for calling me by name. You have redeemed me and you have called me by name. -Amen-

So You Think You Can Dance!!!

Alright, for the past 2 months: myself, along with the Smith family have been madley addicted to " So You Think You Can Dance." Yeah we are addicted, the kind of addicted that thanks to TiVo, we watch the dances over and over and even weeks later surf the YouTube world until we find them again!!! A true addiction :)

Although all good things must come to an end, and tonight we have to say good-bye to Katee, Joshua, Twitch, and Cortney!!! Sad, my bet is on either Joshua or Katee, both beautiful dancers and so humble!!! I wont miss though, Mary Murphy's screem and Nigal's teeth ( they bother me so much)!

Tonight, my heart may just possible be broken becuase the show we tune in for all summer long on Wednesday and Thursday night's come's to an end. There still maybe hope because the tour is coming to Pensacola in November sometime. But I don't think I will be able to attend that, because there is nothing better than watching it on tv!!

If you watch the show, enjoy!!!

Girl's Weekend!!!!

( The Molly moment's, Emily and Libby live to see. I have this thing, that I laugh at everything, even if it's not that funny. I'm the girl that you can tell a dumb joke to and laugh, when no one else does!!! But the worst is when we take pictures, I can't smile for long until it turns into a laugh and sure enough, mid laugh the picture is snapped)

It has been a while since I can last remember Emily, Libby and I going away for the weekend. Sad right! My two best friends and we can't seem to find time to all get together for dinner once a week to chat....life has gotten busy! I can only imagine what it is going to be like when we start school. But, Emily's aunt Sharon DeVine ( love that name) lives on Dauphine Island, so we trecked down there in the BUG for the weekend and did absolutly nothing. We layed out, swam, layed out some more and ate so much food we felt sick. But it was some good times, that is for sure. We laughed alot, talked about life, and just had fun embracing and soaking up the moment together and our friendship that at our age has somehow lasted an astonishing 7 years!!!

The Kodak moments, that we shared were maybe not some of our best but they were some funny ones. Libby for some reason enjoys making " the face" as Emily and I call it, along with throwing the peace sign in the air!!! Oh how we laugh at Libby and how she want's to stay young!!!

So all three of us can at least say that we did spend a weekend together this summer. The days are winding down and we are still trying to cram all the things we wanted to do in the time span of 2 weeks and counting!!! How I sometimes wish time would stop or the days would be longer, but that is not how God intended it to be, so I guess I will have to settle for what he gave me!!!

August!

It's already August!! Where does time go...it seems as I get older, the summers and school years just fly by. I don't want that to happen, because that means that I have to grow up and take more responsibilities on ( that is a scary thing)!

Tomorrow is Nate's 16th birthday:) He is so old, but he has turned into be a wonderful, Christ serving, loving young man! So I decided to help mom out and make both the cake he wants for tonight, as we celebrate with family and the cupcakes for tomorrow's party with friends!! Just call me little miss Betty crocker!!! I enjoy baking and cooking, because there is an end product and it's structured. The family was sitting around this morning at breakfast and we were talking about how fast the 16 years has gone and a story came up about myself when Nate was born, I remember this event so well and we always get a good laugh out of it when we talk about it.

I was 3 1/2 when Nate was born, the last of the Vosicky children and we lived in the wonderful town of Fond du lac, Wisconsin!!! Yes, he is a true cheese head, and he is one proud man to say that he is. The day Nate was born, Alex and I were dropped off at our family friends house, Bill and Cathy Crawford ( wonderful people that were true servents). Well, as a little girl, I had a true fear of men, mostly fathers. I didn't spend the night at anyone of my friends house until I was in the 7th grade!!!! But the story goes, is Mr. Bill was going to take Alex and I to the hospital to see Nate and mom. For the past day I had made my perch on their leather couch ( thank God for that) and never got off. Alex went about his regular self and played and was loud. The time came for Mr. Bill to take us to the hospital and he came near me to pick me up and carry me to the car, as he picked me up I proceeded to "pee" my pants on him and their wonderful leather couch!!!! Yes, I was so scared of him that I peed all over him and myself. Alex descirbes me as a little timmed kitten, of course that is a pathetic way to look at it, but whatever! I was determined that no one was going to move me, so the Crawford's had to call another great friend of our's Kathy Johnson to come and get me.
Looking back at that, I laugh at myself because it was such a weird game that my mind was playing on me. That is just one of many stories that the Vosicky household will laugh all day over and it brings back wonderful memories, even if they involve me peeing my pants on the pastor of our church!!!!

Well, Happy Birthday Nate!!! I guess I should go and check on my baking progress. This afternoon I am contemplating on cleaning my car, it seems to accumulate junk over time and alot of sand ( what little kids drag into your car)!!!

Enjoy Christs love!

God Is Good!

WOW!

I just glanced at my calender and saw that it's the middle of July!!! Meaning in no time, I will be heading back to school and back to the books and papers of trying to graduate on top ( that's harder than it seems). This summer has been one of great reward, not just physically but mentally, emotionally, and spirtually. The Lord has drawn my heart close to his again and I yearn for him. I praise Him, even when I have no desire to and when I am angry and fighting with him. He is great!!! I often wonder what my life would be like if I didn't have a deep relationship with the Lord......I am sure that I would not be here ( for the darkest time in my life many years ago, I thought I would take my life). How selfish as I look back on it. I thank the Lord everyday for life and for it stands for. Becuase he is good and loves me, I was spared and I am one of his chosen children!! Praise God!

Something that has been on my heart for quite some time now, is Hope and Billy Atchison. With the lose of their baby girl Alaina, I have kept up with Hope's blog that she has been keeping. Let's just say that I am beyond amazed and speechless at how great our God is. He has enstilled in Hope and strength that is only tangable through him. Even through this horrific, trying time she is raising her hands to the heavens and praising him. I have been humbled and have a new outlook on what life should be based on. Not what I base it on ( i.e: what I wear, what I drive, ect) it should be based on and centered around the Lord. For it is a daily struggle for me to praise the Lord, at times it will be months before I pick the bible up and really read and sink into his word. But despite that, he is good and he for some reason still draws me near to him, even when I don't desire him. God is Good!

I pray that I can be a godly example to those around me. Be a leader to those that need the leading and be loving to those that feel they are not! I am called to be a servent, my heart ( not to toot my own horn) but I love serving. If I could uplift someone's day by sending a note, or calling when they are sick, then that makes my day. Even though I am selfish, I love to put others before myself. A dream of mine, is to enroll into the Peace Corps, after I graduate from college. ALthough this needs to be prayed about, I have a yearnign to go and spread the word, to go and be humbled for my surrounds are better than over 90% if the world. How great, and who am I to be bitter and angry for not having the newist things. I feel so shallow writting that, but it is beyond true in all it stands for.

So I pray that everyone is and has been having a great, restful summer and that in prasing the Lord we find a peace and center about ourselves. Repeat to yourself that God is Good and that all things are planned before time itself and he has prepared us to walk the road we are on, be it a road of dispair or a raod of contentment, he is perfect and his plan is perfect. Who are we to judge and be angry at him ( our sinful nature)!

XOXO- Molly

P.S- I started sewing, I made my first pillows last night, they are a little funky, but I think over time I will get the hang of it. My next sewing adventure it to make curtins for my new apartment in Mobile....I will post some pictures of the pillows and curtins when they are all done.

HI Everyone!!!

I have conformed and started a 'blog!' I never thought that it would happen, but I gave it a thought and said that I would give it a try:)

This summer has been going well so far. I've been working hard and exhausting hours as a 'nanny' to the wonderful 'Wiggins' children ( Anna Lisa, Graham & Caroline)! They run me hard, but I love them so much and they have taught me so much about not only myself but about how great our God is. I'm blessed to have them in my life and I pray that I am witness to them (even though they are young, it's never to early to start).

Along with babysitting, I have been soul searching. I really do hate that term but I couldn't think of another one to describe what the Lord is doing in my life. HE IS GREAT!

This has been the verse that I have fallen in love with and find to comfort me in all seasons of my life. And believe me I have been through some seasons:) Many winters but many springs as well, but it's through the wonderful Lord I serve that carries me through them.

" There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to meant, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace."
~Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

I hope everyone is doing well and that you are enjoying the wonderful summer days ( beach, vacations, picnics, or just reading a book that you have put off since last summer)

May God Bless your day,

Molly